In Sinu Jesu

When heart speaks to heart


Currently reading: In Sinu Jesu

Here are some of my favourite words of Jesus, recorded in this book by a priest who encountered Jesus at adoration: 

“Act with courage, with audacity, with confidence. Act as a man, a man of God, a man configured to Christ, a man anointed by the Holy Spirit.”

“One who desires to seek My Eucharistic Face, one who desires to draw near to My open Heart, is never far from the tabernacle… I welcome his desire to abide in My presence. I give him the grace of My presence in the most secret part of his soul. There he will find Me, and there he will be able to adore Me.” 

“…the action of the Eucharist renews My sacrifice upon the Cross, and that I am present upon the altar as upon the Cross, as both Priest and Victim. It is the whole of My sacrifice of love that unfolds before their eyes.” 

“…find in them [the saints] a true friendship, a friendship that is all pure, a friendship that does not disappoint… Do not cease invoking My saints and teach others to seek from them the help they need in the trials of this life on earth.” 

“…be adorers in spirit and in truth… abide, at every moment, before My Eucharistic Face. Do not forsake My Heart that beats with love, that wants only to pour out torrents of mercy upon those who draw near to My real presence.” 

“For too long you have been far from Me, without being able to keep Me company, without being able to hear all that I wished to say to you. But now, the moment has come. Now and henceforth, I am speaking to you, and I shall speak to you, so that many may be brought back to Me, and in Me, find healing and peace.” 

“You will find My suffering Face in the Eucharist. My head bowed to say “yes” to the Father: you will also find it in the Eucharist. And My pierced and open Heart from which flows the gift of the Holy Spirit for the salvation of the whole world and the joy of the Church — it is in the Eucharist that you will find it.” 

“As for yourself, do not fear. I am opening before you a path that leads to life in abundance, and no one will be able to contest this life.” 

“At the right time the path will open before you, and you will have great joy in following it. Everything will be clear, because all will have been prepared in advance by the foresight of My merciful love and by the interventions of My most holy Mother. On that day you will have nothing to fear.” 

“Live these days in a pressing, constant prayer. Draw closer to My Sacred Heart. Drink from the refreshing streams of My love. Allow yourselves to be prepared by My secret but so effacacious action in you.” 

“Great graces are in store for you, but to receive them you must be very little, like children who have a limitless confidence in the love of their papa. When you seek to reason out everything, to know everything ahead of time, to control everything by human means, you keep Me from acting as the God of love that I am. I ask neither for ability nor great preparations on your part; I ask only for confidence, your confidence in Me, in the love of My open Heart for each one of you.” 

“When nothing is clear, when nothing is foreseeable, it is the moment to make many acts of confidence.” 

“…will take the path that I have always wanted for him. It was for this work that everything served as a preparation, including his own sins.” 

“My design is one, but each person will have a part in its realisation. For this, you must all be humble, little, and suspended on My word. I will not fail you, I will not leave you without light.” 

O Jesus, King of Love, I put my trust in Thy merciful goodness. 

O Holy Spirit, Soul of my soul, I adore Thee. Enlighten me, guide me, strengthen me, console me. Establish my soul in Truth. O Thou, who proceeds from the Father and the Son, I consecrate this day to Thee, O Divine Paraclete. Today, I desire to live in Thy presence, attentive to Thy inspirations, and obedient to Thy voice. O Holy Spirit, come into my life through Mary. Renew and invigorate me. Sanctify me. 

Here I am, Lord Jesus! I heard your call and I have come to find you in the Sacrament of Your love. 

“You could have come sooner. I was waiting for you. I am always waiting for you… If only they [priests] knew what awaits them in My presence: the plentitude of mercy, rivers of living water to cleanse them, to invigorate their priesthood, to sanctify them.” 

“This is the call that I addressed to you, and, with the call, I always give the grace to correspond to it.”

“Accustom yourself to giving Me the best of your time.” 

“It is My Heart that waits for you in the tabernacle; it is My gaze that, full of tenderness, fixes itself, from the tabernacle, on those who draw near to it.” 

“I am ablaze to be for each one [of my priests] the Friend whom they seek, the Friend with whom they can share everything, the Friend to whom they can tell everything, the Friend who will weep over their sins without, for a moment, ceasing to love them.”

“It is in the Eucharist that I wait…as physician and as remedy. If they are sick in their body or in their soul, let them seek Me out, and I will heal them of the evil that afflicts them.” 

“To those who come to Me, I will give love and holiness. And in this shall My Father be glorified. And this shall come to pass through the intimate action of My Spirit. Where I am present in the Sacrament of My love, there also is the Spirit of the Father and of the Son. It is by the Holy Spirit that My Eucharistic presence is My glorious presence to the Father in heaven, and it is by the Holy Spirit that My Eucharistic presence touches the souls who adore Me to unite them to Me, and bear them up even before My Father’s face.” 

“This is how I would have you pray for the time being. Take the time to come before Me. Seek My Face. When you pray in this way I will draw you close to My Heart. Pray using My Mother’s Rosary, even when you feel that your prayer is empty or mechanical, or when you are beset by distractions. The decision to pray pleases My Sacred Heart and the Immaculate Heart of My Mother. 

The time you offer to us, when you pray as you did tonight, becomes precious in our eyes and is of immense benefit to your soul and to the souls for whom you pray. I see all of those for whom you prayed tonight – those whom you named and those whom you did not name – and I bless each one as I bless you now…” 

“I have chosen you and My designs on your life will be fulfilled. The time is coming when you will praise and thank Me for doing for you according to the promises I have made you. Trust Me and let nothing keep you from seeking My Face and My Heart in prayer. I bless you.” 

“Your prayer pleases Me. It is inspired by the Holy Spirit in you. The Holy Spirit facilitates the conversation with Me that is the expression of our friendship. Those who draw near to Me with confidence and simplicity, seeking My Face and longing for the warmth of the fire that blazes in My Heart – they are led and moved by the Holy Spirit.” 

“This has already begun, even though you may not always feel that you are living in My friendship, and in the intimacy of My most holy Mother. Our eyes never leave you, not even for a moment, and our Hearts are united in loving affection for you, even as they were for My beloved disciple and friend, Saint John. Live in this grace. Do not refuse what we would give you in abundance. Remain confident. We bless you, My Mother’s hand in Mine. We bless you, and those for whom you have asked our blessing.” 

“Listen to Me and I will speak to you. My heart overflows with love for you, and when one loves, one has much to say — and then there is a communion in love deeper than all words, in the silence that unites souls to Me. I will give you that silence too.”

“I have chosen you to live in My friendship. Let Me respond, as I see fit, to all your heart’s desires. In what I will give you, there is no bitterness, no poison, no deception — I will give you only My light, My truth, My sweetness, My love, and a participation in all My states and in all My mysteries.”

“The fire of My Heart is the Living Flame of Love, the Holy Spirit. Yield to that fire, and ask Me to enkindle it in you and in the souls of all My priests. The flame of purifying and sanctifying love blazes from My Body in the Most Holy Eucharist.”

“If you desire to receive the fire of My purifying and sanctifying love, live in the presence of My Immaculate Mother as did My beloved disciple and friend, Saint John. She who was present in the cenacle at the Pentecost by which I sent My Church into the world is also at the heart of this Pentecost of holiness…” 

“I will give to each one according to his need, but also according to his readiness to receive My gifts.”

“…look to My Mother and call upon her name with confidence. Insist on this when you are called to preach or teach.”

“…in all of life, place your hands in the hands of My Mother and your heart in her Heart.”

Our Lady: 

“It is I who brought you here, that, in the presence of my Son, the divine Lamb Who takes away the sins of the world, you might be inwardly healed and refreshed.”

“…become aware of the infinite value and power of but a single drop of the Blood of my Son… adore His precious Blood in the Sacrament of His love. His Blood mixed with water flows ceaselessly from His Eucharistic Heart, His Heart pierced by the soldier’s lance to purify and vivify the whole Church, but in the first place, to purify and vivify His priests. When you come into His Eucharistic presence, be aware of His precious Blood streaming from His open Heart. Adore His Blood and apply it to your wounds and to the wounds of souls.” 


“…a beacon in the dark night of faithlessness where so many are tempted to forget Me or to doubt of My love, and even of My existence.”

“Seek Me out. Remain before My Face. Stay close to My wounded Heart in the Sacrament of My love, and I will do for you what I, and no one 

#2: Holy Spirit, who teaches us

Part of the ‘Getting to know you, Holy Spirit’ series

The Holy Spirit is the best teacher – patient, watchful and generous with knowledge, equipping and encouraging us. No lesson with the Holy Spirit is boring or dull!

In the Cathecism of the Catholic Church, we learn that the Holy Spirit reveals the Word to us [CCC 687]. Have you ever read a bible passage or heard the Gospel at mass and thought – ‘Whoa, this applies to me!’ or a certain phrase or word stands out to you? This is the Holy Spirit, revealing the Word to you.

One of the first changes in my life after the Outpouring of the Holy Spirit was that I began reading the bible more. Before reading, I would pray:

Holy Spirit, please open my heart and mind to receive the Word. Lead me as I read, grant me wisdom to understand your message for me, and courage to do as I am called. Amen.

I read, not aiming to read as much as I could, but to take time to dwell in the Word. When you dwell in the Word, the Holy Spirit will reveal and illuminate the Word to you. You’ll be amazed by the richness and depth of the Word! After all, remember that the Word was written, inspired by the Holy Spirit. It is that very same Holy Spirit whom we can turn to, to teach us and guide us as we read the Word.

In Pope Francis’ message on Pentecost last year, he explained that the Holy Spirit’s role of teaching:

“…The Holy Spirit doesn’t bring a different teaching, but makes that of Jesus alive and active, so that the passage of time does not erase it or make it fade… He grafts this teaching into our hearts, helps us to interiorize it, making it become part of us, flesh of our flesh,” the Pope continued, adding that at the same time, the Spirit “prepares the heart so that it is able to truly receive the words and example of the Lord.”  [read full article here]

Ask the Holy Spirit who brings Jesus’ timeless teachings to life, to help you to understand and live it in your life.

Getting to know The Holy Spirit

[An intro to the series]


Peace be with you all.

The ministry I serve runs the Life in the Spirit Seminar (LISS) at our parish and we’re currently at a turning point: the Sacrament of Reconciliation. In the upcoming weeks, the participants will be learning more about the Holy Spirit, leading up to the Outpouring of the Holy Spirit and the Commissioning Mass.

Before attending LISS a few years ago, the Holy Trinity and Holy Spirit were mysterious subjects to me. I couldn’t explain either well, and never consciously turned to the Holy Spirit for help. Why? Because I knew very little about the Holy Spirit.

So how can you learn more about the Holy Spirit? You can read bible verses and books about the Holy Spirit but ‘head-knowledge’ can only explain so much. To know the Holy Spirit is to build a relationship with the Holy Spirit.

Imagine you’re on a blind date. Or that you’ve just met a new colleague / classmate. What are the first few questions in that conversation?

I’m excited to share this series of reflections with you, based on bible verses and writings of the Saints. It will be a 32-day series, with a different characteristic of the Holy Spirit as the topic for each day.

As you begin conversing and getting know the Holy Spirit, I pray that you too, will discover these amazing traits of the Holy Spirit and recognise the movement of the Holy Spirit in your life.



Photo: Stained glass in Aloysius’ Church in Somers Town, London (taken by: Lawerence OP)

Detours and roadblocks

Let God lead the way


It’s been more than a month since I last wrote here. Work has escalated and the evenings that I used to keep free (for a balanced life), have been consumed by work. It is no excuse though, for neglecting time with God. Without keeping God as centre of my life, I have let myself fall and I’ve been drowning in unhappiness eversince.

I was even driven to a point where I seriously considered going to live in Australia for a year. I did all the research, calculating how much I would need, where would I go and what would I do. Through the planning, I realised how little I could bring with me. I made a list of 30 things I would bring. If I could only bring one book, what would it be? The answer was clear – the bible. If I could explore towns without a limit to how long I could stay there, what would I do? I would visit churches, like a walking pilgrimage, and sit in each church for as long as I wanted. I would volunteer in churches and communities that needed help. I would choose a scenic spot every morning to start the day with prayer, praise and worship, reading and silent reflection. Answers were starting to be clearer than ever. Would I be able to survive on a week’s worth of clothing? Sure, I could. Nowadays I wear mostly the same clothes anyway. I thought about recording acoustic praise and worship with a reading every day in different locations and upload them online so people can join in wherever they are. I thought about approaching people (laity and religious) to write their stories of courage.

It was as if I finally gave my soul a chance to speak!

From the beginning of the year, my plan (keyword: my) was to explore Europe for 3 months from October to December. Then I realised – I needed more time to save up so that my expenditure will not touch the savings I have now, what kind of sister isn’t around on her brothers’ 21st birthday, and that I’d be away during LISS months. Still, I was adamant to make the Europe trip happen.

Should I go?

I received an answer at a retreat in April.

Stay. I will show you where you are to go. 

I wasn’t prepared for that answer. Stay, and wait? I was impatient and restless, already making plans on which cities I would visit. But this prompting was too strong to ignore so I let go of that plan.

In June, an Australian work and holiday visa was announced for Singaporeans aged 18-30. I turn 30 next year so it is the last opportunity to qualify for this visa. So that sparked off the research into how feasible it was to live and work there, and what documents were required.

On 1 September, I was ready to apply. I went online in the morning to register for an appointment. The earliest available slot was 12 September. I tried clicking on it but it didn’t select the date. So I closed the window and tried again later that afternoon. This time, there was a notice saying that there are no slots available. I emailed the visa office immediately, asking when the next batch of slots will be open. They replied, October.

And so here I am, waiting.

It is hard to walk without seeing where I am headed. As a planner, I like to know the goal and work out how to get there. But I am being taught to be patient, to trust in God’s plan for me (not my plan for myself) and about faithfulness in tough times.

I am reminded of Acts 16:6 where Paul and his companions were kept by the Holy Spirit from preaching the Word in Asia. Now is not the right time yet. Eventually, they do go to Asia Minor as mentioned in Acts 19:10. But before going there, they have to go to Troas and to Philippi on the way to Macaedonia. They didn’t intend to go to Philippi, but it was there that Lydia and her household converted after listening to Paul, it was there that Paul, through the power of God, commanded a spirit out of a slave girl, it was there that Paul and his companions were beaten, thrown into prison where Paul and Silas sang praise and worship to God while the prisoners listened, where the jailer and his household was converted, where they were released from prison – an encouragement to fellow believers.

No task is a detour, when given from God.

I am asked to reflect if I am willing to let God lead the way instead of trying to carve my own way. I am asked to reflect on the authenticity of the reason/s why I want to go abroad. I am asked to be patient until the right time happens in God’s time (not mine).



Live in truth

Be transformed and renewed

Psalm 15: 2-5

He who walks blamelessly, and does what is right, and speaks truth from his heart;  who does not slander with his tongue, and does no evil to his friend, nor takes up a reproach against his neighbour; in whose eyes a reprobate is despised, but who honors those who fear the Lord; who swears to his own hurt and does not change; who does not put out his money at interest, and does not take a bribe against the innocent. He who does these things shall never be moved.


The top priority for anyone serving in a music ministry is to pray the lyrics and mean it. Yes, musicality and proficiency are important, but first, we have to live a life of praise and worship. It has to be a 24-hr lifestyle.

When I first began serving, I struggled with some songs because I didn’t live it. For example, how could I sing “Lord, I give you my heart, I give you my soul. I live for you alone…” if I didn’t give Jesus my all, and other things in life held priority over living for Jesus?

In my struggle to live a life aligned in truth, the Holy Spirit urged me to examine my thoughts, words, motivations, actions and intentions. Then I began to see the errors in my ways. Conviction is a bitter pill but I had to change, and I had to let God change me. With God’s grace, I was moulded by His Word. As I kept striving to live in truth, God was my coach, Jesus was my captain and the Holy Spirit was my motivator.

Is it possible to walk blamelessly as Psalm 15 says?

Though difficult, it is possible. Today’s Gospel (Matthew 7: 13-14) asks us to enter by the narrow gate; for the gate is wide and the way is easy, that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many.  For the gate is narrow and the way is hard, that leads to life, and those who find it are few.” 

Enter by the narrow gate, by living a renewed life in Christ, leaving sin and old ways behind. 

Let us turn to Mary and all the Saints, as examples for us to follow. They’ve found and entered by the narrow gate! A theological reflection by Harry Dudley on describes our journey of faith, and that our choices have consequences.

Will your choices today be made in truth, aligned to God’s commandments? 

Dudley reflects on the ‘Narrow Gate’ passage which ends the Sermon on the Mount (Matthew 7:13-28):

“Jesus presents us with a series of contrasts, comparing two kinds of life within the community of his disciples: those who obey the words of Jesus and thus please God the Father and those who do not.

Disciples who obey the words of Jesus allow his life to shape the whole of their existence according to their faith in Jesus Christ. As the United States National Directory for Catechesis (2005, no. 42) says, “Christian moral formation . . . involves confession of faith in him, adherence to his person and his teaching, following in his footsteps, taking on his attitudes, and surrendering the old self in order to take up the new self in Christ.” Why we may ask? Because “Christ is the norm of morality. ‘Christian morality consists . . . in following Jesus Christ, in abandoning oneself to him, in letting oneself be transformed by his grace and renewed by his mercy, gifts which come to us in the living communion of his Church”. 

Disciples who do not follow the words of Jesus, by not relating them to their everyday life and decisions, are like the poor sheep who are led astray by other voices besides Jesus’.”

In an address to the crowd in 2013, the Holy Father, Pope Francis said:

“Don’t be afraid: He’s waiting for you. Be lively, have the courage to enter through His gate. All are invited to pass through this gate, to pass through the gate of faith, to enter into His life, and to allow Him to enter into our life, because He transforms it, renews it, the gifts of full and lasting joy.”    [Read the full transcript here]


  • Do my decisions / actions / thoughts reflect Christ?

  • Activity: Divide a sheet of paper into 2 columns. On the left, list words that describe your actions, words and thoughts. On the right, list words that describe a life of holiness. Draw a line to match a word on the left column to a similar or opposite word on the right column. Choose one that you want to work on, and pray for God’s guidance and grace to live a life that is true and holy.

  • Am I a key to the gate (that is Christ) by being a living witness? Or do I keep Christ to myself by not sharing with those who seek Him? 

Save us from the fires of hell

Lead all souls to Heaven

When we reached Fatima, the first thing we did was to head towards the little shed that housed candles of all sizes. We gave love offerings for the candles we took and went to the area designated for lighting candles.

I don’t recall it being so hot. When we went in the winter of 2014, we could stand comfortably near the candles and take our time to light them.

But this time, I could feel the searing heat from about 5 to 10 steps away from where the candles were burning. Thankfully, my brother braved the heat to help me light my candles.

As I was standing there, I thought in horror – God, is this what the fires of hell feel like? Save me! Save all of us! Do not allow us to be in such suffering and away from your presence!