My motto is: Let my life be undivided, God
I was inspired by these words which are from the song “King of my Soul” by Matt Redman. Listen to it here:
I heard this song last year at a Nox Gaudii session organised by the OYP (Office for Young People). It was so joyful and encompassed everything I wanted to do in the new year:
- Place God first always
- Live for God
- Surrender joyfully to what God calls me to do
My motto reminds me to do all these things, and most importantly, to live an undivided life. What does that mean? It means letting God into all parts of your life, not just your prayer time or when you’re at church. God speaks to us while we work or study, through our families, in our conversations with friends, in kindness to strangers, in decisions we make throughout the day. Previously I used to say the phrase “spiritual life” when referring to prayer or formation. But now, I have taken that phrase out of my vocabulary to remind myself that my whole life should be spiritual. There should not be any part of my life where I shut away from God.
My goal is: To speak boldly about God
At SpiritFest last year, I was praying for the gift of speech. I always feel a great heat when I need to say something / share a testimony but then fear creeps in and I hold back. I needed the Holy Spirit to help me overcome my fears and instill in me courage to speak, as God wills. So I prayed.
Catechism of the Catholic Church
2003 – “…grace also includes the gifts that the Spirit grants us to associate us with his work, to enable us to collaborate in the salvation of others and in the growth of the Body of Christ, the Church…”
During adoration on the first day, I saw Jesus waiting for me across a river. He smiled and waved me over. But I was afraid – surely I would drown if I tried to leap across because a) I can’t swim b) the river was too wide. So I refused, confused. His eyes softened, seeing my increasing fear. Arms outstretched, he promises he will catch me. So before rational thoughts riot, I run towards to the river and jump. He caught me just as he said he would. And when I turn around to look at the river, I saw it wasn’t as deep as I thought. I had let fear keep me away from Jesus.
On the last day, we were asked to pick a folded note each but not open it until we were asked to. Then there was a procession to the rooftop of the church, where the readings for the day were read. The gospel was proclaimed as well, but from where I was standing at the back, I could not hear it properly. The organisers asked us to get into small groups and share what our notes said.
“And they were all filled with the holy Spirit and began to speak in different tongues, as the Spirit enabled them to proclaim.” – Acts 2:4
The Spirit enabled them to proclaim.
I kept praying, asking for the gift of speech so that I could proclaim without fear or self-consciousness.
It was during adoration on the last day when I felt the burden of doubt, overthinking, fear, self-consciousness, all removed from me. Now’s my turn for action.
Since then, I’ve been striving to stretch myself towards to the ultimate goal (of evangelising). I wanted to do something every month, something more, which would help me become a better speaker as well as to grow in faith and in the Word.
Here’s my 12-step plan for 2016:
- Share a bible verse every day
- Share a reflection on the Word every day
- Share with someone I haven’t talked to in a while
- Share with people from other ministries
- Share on social media
- Attend a formation class / complete a bible study
- Share what I’ve learned from the formation
- Record my sharings
- Form a group to share and encourage sharings
- Organise gatherings to meet, pray and share together
- Give a testimony at a workshop / event
- Give a testimony in church
[Ultimate step: Evangelise]
I shared this with my ministry on 20 January 2016 as part of my reflection on the theme ‘Transformation’, based on 1 Samuel 3:4-10 (God calls Samuel) and Matthew 14: 28-29 (Walking on water). If you’d like to see the slides for those, just leave a comment below.
- What is your goal for the year?
- What is your motto or, do you have a favourite bible verse that you hold on to?
- What more can you do for God this year?
- Identify your strengths and weaknesses, surrender them all to God and ask God to show you what He is asking of you, and ask Him for the graces and courage you need to do as He wills.